lately...

"sometimes i can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives i'm not living" (jonathan safran foer).

this is exactly how i have been feeling this past week. i mean exactly. in so many ways. the weekend was a good time to just come to grips, pick up my pieces, or rather push them all together into a pile so they aren't completely lost when i finally can manage to pick them up.

i spent alot of time in silent tears. or staring at nothing. or watching the t.v. show bones because it turned out to be an amazing distraction.

but... life goes on.